a dog, a boy, life, work, and a verse

This past week was full of hardships and fun. Crazy how the two can go together. I finally got permission to get a dog...only to end up giving her to another family. Made me realize how much I depend on other people's opinions...so much so that I don't know what I think. It's a knot I can't untangle. My exboyfriend and I are growing farther apart...at least on my end...the bridge is burning and he doesn't even know it... and while I am deeply sad and miss him, I am happy to move on. There was a code blue at the hospital and another person died. Funny...life I mean. Just gone...like that. Reminds me of ants and how as a kid, I would just stomp them out...a game to me, but it was a life...there and then gone. Patients at the hospital deathly sick. Some hard, busy, stressful nights. My heart breaks for the families...patients too young to be so sick! Why am I there? Feeling distant from God and having no time yet not knowing what I am doing with my time.

Yet I had great fun! I went to the zoo Sunday afternoon with some girls from church and later on in the evening slept in the backyard in a tent with my Mom. Fresh air and bright stars. Splendor. Green grass and peacefulness. Fixed my car radio and hung out with my dad. Went down with a good friend to visit my sister. =0) That is always great. Cooked dinner, hung out with the neighforhood kids and then went on a crazy motorcycle ride!!!! AGHHHH!!! My arms are sore today, but I must admit I had an amazing time...except for the danger element. There is something about it...feels like you are flying...all the surroundings you past become more alive and you feel closer to them and yet it feels different. Stopping hard...quickly picking up speed....till your head feels like it is going to fall off! Can't catch breath. 115. Whew! I love the wind and adventure.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18...this verse....I love it and want it to be true in my life..."Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus". What does it mean to pray continually? What kind of prayers? I think here it is talking about continually to praise God and thank him...to sing his praise! So yah...I want to be real and not split, but also want to be joyful and enjoy every second of life even having peace through the hard stuff and continuing to praise my Savior. Not to constanly resquest things from him, but to truly thank him for all the daily blessings.