Raw

What can I say? The English vocabulary does not have enough depth or feeling to describe the thickness of emotion I felt around me today. Grief. Life never the same. Suddenly altered and there is nothing you can do about it. Doesn't feel real. “Dear God how can I help my friend and her family? Give me wisdom and help be to be self-less. Move through me and may your love guide me.”

Comfort. How? Give long hugs, can't help but cry with them. Listen and listen some more. Help make those mundane decisions...what color to buy, how many to get, when to eat and what looks best. Pointless. Fragile. Barely hanging on. Have you ever seen a person who is in so much grief that it manipulates the face? The person looks familiar, but yet agony is molded into the fragile skin. Distraught. Lost like a little child. How does life move on?

“Dear God…be with my friends! I know they barely know you. I think that makes this all the harder on them. May your presence be known and surround them with people who do know you and know you intimately. This pain…so up close and so personal, but Lord I know you are in control. Thank you that I CAN trust in you and I have no reason to fear. Let this truth ring free for this family too. Help them to continue to grieve and draw them closer to you. In Jesus Name”