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Northrop High School. There's a stuffed bear in the two story lobby where I used to eat my lunch. The auditorium is near by. Musicals, band and orchestra performances...that's what I did there, but tonight there was a talent show. How many years has it been since I stepped through those doors? I don't know. I felt disgusted and heartbroken for what I saw. Talent show? No way! The songs and body movements of those kids were disturbing and provocative. What? Audience yelling and screaming. No respect. Huh? What do these teens know? I wonder how many of them claim to be Christian. Is it their culture? I was embarrassed for what I saw and walked out for a bit. I try to be informed and stay with the "real" world. That is one thing I loved about going to public schools...I lived outside of the "Christian bubble" and loved it. I don't get as many opportunities except at work now days and with a few friends who don't know Jesus, but tonight...it just made me want to cry. Is this what most teens get enjoyment out of? I wonder what they will do with their lives? Where are they going? Is hope something they even seek after? How many of them truly know who Jesus is and how do you reach them? Tears.

I guess it really isn't just at this school setting, that I see so much...atrocity. It really is everywhere. Lately I have been reading in 1 Samuel and now in 2 Samuel. To be honest, it makes me sick what I read and have really been mad at David and what he did! From killing innocent people to out right lying...I just got fed up! To me David is NOT a hero and I really struggle with parts of the Old Testament. I don't want to justify it or make up excuses for what happened trying to find reason behind the madness. (I think Christians do this too much!) Maybe there are reasons...but I don't know of any right now. However, there is one thing I know...man IS sinful. And that I see. As I talked to a friend, it became clear to me...really although we don't kill people as freely as it seems they did in David's day...we are just as sinful. The disappointment I feel at people that claim to be "Christians" and the frustrations I feel at Old Testament characters are actually similar...and really I too am a sinner. And maybe that is what makes David's story so amazing. He REALLY wasn't anyone special...and sinned deeply yet God still choose him to lead a nation and loved him despite the deeds done. Wow….