Hmmm....
OH, I have so much I could say. I love writing here, but haven’t in awhile because well…there's other activities that need attention, and this can get addicting.
A misty rain fell through out today. It was like living in cloud. Our phone went dead so it was great not relying on it for 24 hours. Makes a person realize the phone is just one more item usually taken for granted.
Yesterday, I was blessed to go wedding shopping with a friend. Trying on dresses, taking pictures, laughing at the odd gowns that we couldn't imagine anyone really wanting to wear. The happy hours slipped. Isn't it great to be with friends and sharing life?
The desire for a warm, hot drink and time to think brought me to a coffee house today. (A new location for studying would be helpful because I have gotten to know the locals of this place making it difficult to study for any period of time, especially when it comes to guys. There are a few that enter quite regularly. They are nice guys, but how do you get across the fact you are not interested without being rude? I am still thinking on that one).
Anyways, there is one guy who is not there to date...who just desires quality conversation, and that is what we have.
As I sipped my tea and argued my case, I realized once more how much of my faith is based on sermons and lessons I have learned from others. How many verses do I really know apart from what I have been taught? I process what I read in the Bible according to past learnings. Critical thinking is not being used. Sad. What exactly is my world view and how did I get there? I do not know, and this should not be. I mold too easily to others, and it is time to really dig into the Bible. Whether this guy is right or wrong...I do not know. What is known is he stands firm in what he believes because of the studying he has poured into it. How many Christians really read the Bible or think for themselves? The numbers seem to be low.
Is there such a thing as free will? Do humans play an active role in salvation? Can you believe that they do not and also believe that predestination is wrong? Does God hear the prayers of all people or only those who have his spirit in them? Must a person fear God and his justice completely before fully understanding salvation? How do you know you are saved? Do the majority of people act as if it is deeds even if they say it is through Jesus? I know that it is hard for me to view God in his Justice. It seems so harsh, yet I do not want to soften God or put him into a mold I make because that would be worshipping a "false God". Truth is what I seek. It is strange, because part of me is at peace “just believing” and not thinking. Yet I know the importance of thinking and knowing so I will seek it out.
In other news...6 days till we move and yes it is hard. Such a dream. I wish I wasn't so sentimental. All that surrounds me has meaning. Thankfully, I can take the memories with me. My little sister has a boyfriend for the first time! Exciting, scary and good all at once. I am planning on traveling this summer and also running a marathon. Very fun.
A misty rain fell through out today. It was like living in cloud. Our phone went dead so it was great not relying on it for 24 hours. Makes a person realize the phone is just one more item usually taken for granted.
Yesterday, I was blessed to go wedding shopping with a friend. Trying on dresses, taking pictures, laughing at the odd gowns that we couldn't imagine anyone really wanting to wear. The happy hours slipped. Isn't it great to be with friends and sharing life?
The desire for a warm, hot drink and time to think brought me to a coffee house today. (A new location for studying would be helpful because I have gotten to know the locals of this place making it difficult to study for any period of time, especially when it comes to guys. There are a few that enter quite regularly. They are nice guys, but how do you get across the fact you are not interested without being rude? I am still thinking on that one).
Anyways, there is one guy who is not there to date...who just desires quality conversation, and that is what we have.
As I sipped my tea and argued my case, I realized once more how much of my faith is based on sermons and lessons I have learned from others. How many verses do I really know apart from what I have been taught? I process what I read in the Bible according to past learnings. Critical thinking is not being used. Sad. What exactly is my world view and how did I get there? I do not know, and this should not be. I mold too easily to others, and it is time to really dig into the Bible. Whether this guy is right or wrong...I do not know. What is known is he stands firm in what he believes because of the studying he has poured into it. How many Christians really read the Bible or think for themselves? The numbers seem to be low.
Is there such a thing as free will? Do humans play an active role in salvation? Can you believe that they do not and also believe that predestination is wrong? Does God hear the prayers of all people or only those who have his spirit in them? Must a person fear God and his justice completely before fully understanding salvation? How do you know you are saved? Do the majority of people act as if it is deeds even if they say it is through Jesus? I know that it is hard for me to view God in his Justice. It seems so harsh, yet I do not want to soften God or put him into a mold I make because that would be worshipping a "false God". Truth is what I seek. It is strange, because part of me is at peace “just believing” and not thinking. Yet I know the importance of thinking and knowing so I will seek it out.
In other news...6 days till we move and yes it is hard. Such a dream. I wish I wasn't so sentimental. All that surrounds me has meaning. Thankfully, I can take the memories with me. My little sister has a boyfriend for the first time! Exciting, scary and good all at once. I am planning on traveling this summer and also running a marathon. Very fun.
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