May 23

Hooray for today! The moon is shining brightly and the air outside is warm. I spent the evening (22nd) with friends, kids and my sister. =0) I am so blessed. I think my favorite part of the evening was learning new clapping songs the kids and listening to a six year old learn to read as she stumbled through words. The delight on her face when she finally figured each word out was an expression superior to a child opening a present on Christmas.

Now it is May 23, 2005. I am officially 25 years old (and my driver's license is due today...so lucky me...I get to take a trip to the license branch...no really...it will be fun because I am going to make it exciting...think of all the people there is to meet!). I know that I have "been adult" for awhile now, even though I act like a kid a lot. But for some reason 25 sticks out as a year to be an adult. Maybe not to others...but it does to me. Perhaps it is because I like the number 5 and multiplications of the number, or maybe it is the fact that I am now a quarter of a century old or it just sounds good...25 in 2005 (if you take out the two 00...it matches!). I also think that I have begun to find tools to grow up more mentally and spiritually in the past couple of months. All my life I have been scared of adulthood...or maybe just not ready for it. I never thought much in detail past college and yet here I am...working...but not going anywhere...yet. I have been "mourning" the lose of childhood. Sounds crazy, but true. I pretend not too, but honestly I liked being little and didn't want to grow up. I feel ready now and energized to enter the adult world. The journey has already started, but I am now acknowledging it and ready to run forward. No longer seeking muddy crevices to get wedged in or closing my eyes while screaming and lugging my feet, I look forward to this adult world. I so blessed to have been spoiled to have such a great long childhood and now excited to see the adulthood of life. Every living person has the exact amount of seconds to live each age. So I rejoice and give thanks for my 25 years thus far. I will always be a “kid” in some regards, but now is the day to celebrate adulthood. Gracefulness and anticipation of each moment.